Photo by Lucas Alves
“The best of both worlds”.
That’s a compliment that I receive with ease
As I bleed red
But all they see is my skin in between.
Better for others,
Not enough for some.
“Between two worlds, I do belong”
Nina sang it oppositely
But as I said
Better for some, not enough for all
Not deep enough for my sisters
Too deep for my colleagues
The brothers I want to protect tell me I am “darkest” they seek
My parent is met with confusion when they introduce me
As if they stole me
Or lied to their spouse about fidelity
I am the product of the “best” of both worlds
But no world seems to find the best in me beyond what they see
My lovers are expecting me to offset the damned side
Only use it for “attitude” but not too much
The influenced side makes me docile
Thus acceptable
When did I ask to be marginalized in two cats?
Is it not the red I bleed?
Or my heart’s rhythmic beat that no longer entices?
Just what I am expected to be
And expected to abandon
In my raising the blindness was fluid
No halves or wholes spoke from our lips
It might’ve crippled me for the real world’s disdain to keep my peace
The pattern of my hair makes me trendy
But what made my hair is not
I have never met struggle because of the ease I’m greeted with
Then tell me why am I conversating this aguish
They pick at me not because I’m half dominant
But because I’m half “problematic”
I will side with the problematic as they get it done
They show me the true ugliness in all
But they will have me
Because just a slight tint classifies me against my ancestry
But best of worlds? No Be the best in my world My brain, my work, and my flawless punch Can only hold the strongest You wouldn’t want to be left out Because I had the attitude and docility you seek Sit down Because what the best that can be of your world Has exiled you completely
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